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This smoothie will change your life.

“Pawpaw is a kind of fruit, Pawpaw is a kind of fruit

sweet like sugar, yellow like fanta

everybody likes Pawpaw

 Paw paw”

I’m a huge fan of papayas also known as pawpaws but I simply just hate it when they are sugary sweet y’know, so I figured out a way to reduce the sugary taste and still enjoy my papayas.

I present *drumroll* the lemony papaya mix

For this smoothie you’ll need :

  1. A medium/small size ripe pawpaw
  2. One medium size juicy lemon
  3. A blender or pulser

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How to prepare.

  1. Cut your papaya into cubes for easy blending
  2. Squeeze the juice out of your lemon
  3. Blend the pawpaw till it turns into a smooth paste
  4. Add your lemon juice and blend again to curate the flavours
  5. For extra refreshment especially since the weather has been so hot lately, freeze the papayas before blending.
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You can actually just dice your pawpaw into cubes and dizzle lemon juice all over it.

There you have it guys. Now you can enjoy your overripe pawpaws without that extra sugary taste to it and what’s more, this mix actually tastes like mangoes so when mangoes go out of season in a few months, you can actually reminise with this deliciousness.

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Better than Jollof rice. Yes! i said it

Let me know in the comment section, would you try this smoothie?

Love, Chidimma Akubue

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How to Beat Loss of Appetite when you have Malaria.

Hi guys! first of all let me just tell those of you waiting to see the weight I have gained in the right places to stop waiting. I fell ill lastweek and have lost all the weight again!

From the title you could have guessed that it was malaria. If you live in Nigeria, chances are you’ve had malaria at least once in your life so some of these tips may not be new to you however for those that don’t know what malaria is , here you go:

Malaria is a protozoal disease associated with high grade fever and is often transmitted by female Anopheline mosquito bites. The mosquito transports the parasite from one infected human to another. These parasites then enter the blood stream and infect the red blood cells. The main symptoms of malaria are fever, chills, headache, nausea and vomiting.

How to Survive Malaria.

  • First things first when you suspect you have malaria, visit a lab and have a test done to be sure that you have malaria. I’m not sure if there are side effects to treating non existent malaria but you could ask a doctor first before taking malaria medication.
  • When you have confirmed that it is indeed malaria and your medication has been prescribed by the doctor, go to your trusted local pharmacy and buy the drugs.
  • As with all medication, improper treatment or misuse of malaria medication could lead to complications or render the drugs inffective so make sure to follow the instructions on how to use your malaria medication.
  • When you’re down with malaria, lack of appetite is a huge problem and malaria drugs require that you eat well before taking them so i’ll recommend a few things that worked for me while I was taking my medication.
    ripe plantain in goatmeat peppersoup.
  1. Plantain (ripe or unripe) in goatmeat pepper soup
  2. Malt and milk
  3. Fresh fruits like pawpaw and oranges but I suggest you take it easy on the oranges as vitamin c can inhibit malaria drugs.
  4. White rice and vegetable mix
    white rice and vegetable mix
  5. Most importantly drink a lot of water.

That’s it guys. Please stay away from mosquitoes …malaria is not fun to have, treat or watch.

If you’d like the recipe for these dishes, leave a comment below and I’d be sure to answer you on that.


Chidimma Akubue, defeater of Malaria.

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All These Shoulder Pads and I still Couldn’t Lean on You.

I own a bunch of blazers, some with no padding at all in the shoulders and others heavily padded but not in a comical way. I was sitting down staring at my scanty wardrobe ironically filled with clothes I cannot wear everyday and a thought popped in my head and this post title was born.

Image from Pinterest

Image from Pinterest

This week is #mentalhealthweek and if you’re an avid reader you know I’m all about mental growth which is a huge part of mental health. If you’re new here , you’re very welcome. Grab a bite or a drink and go through the blog. There’s something in it for you and you can only find out by reading.

I don’t know why I chose this caption but it’s funny how everything always relates to something else even when they are obviously from different times and what not.

The shoulder pads are a metaphor for people and even ourselves. Let me explain with this story. When I was about 14 years old I remember being so excited about an event. I planned and prepared. The night before the event I fell ill. That’s an example of being a shoulder pad. When I least expected to be betrayed by my own body I was. Same applies to us as people. You as a person are not just a person unto yourself. You’re a sister, a daughter, a wife, a mother, a best friend a brother, an uncle, a father , a nephew and the list goes on and on. For you to be able to perform your duties to the best of your ability and in these various categories , you have to have it together mentally.

Prioritise your mental health above trivial things. Prioritise your inner peace. Prioritise yourself!

You’re a parent and all you think about is how to give the best to your children. You’re sad , upset and lashing out for no particular reason. HALT, check yourself. Have you taken out time for self care? That alone time you’ve been craving with your spouse or by yourself may just be what you need to get back in the right head space.

You’re a young adult, a teenager, a fresh graduate, a young mum, newly wed or about to wed. You log into any of your social media platforms and you see people your age going places you can only dream of, buying things your present bank account can not afford even if it is multiplied by 100 . Most people you started school with have graduated and are sharing their photos online. You’re two years behind schedule. You had a child before you were ready and now you can’t seem to get it together. Gradually you’re over sleeping or not sleeping at all, over eating or not eating at all, overworking or not working at all. HALT! Take time to breathe. consider that time and chance happens to everyone and social media is really about highligting ones highlights. These exotic photos do not directly translate to exotic lives. they are just photographs.

You’re in your 30s or 40s, no kids yet, no spouse , not even a prospective spouse. You’re feeling lonelier as the days go by. You feel like you might be retiring this existence forever alone. You barely even have it together financially. HALT! Pause take two steps back. You’ve come a long way to undermine everything you’ve been through up to this point. You matter and your dreams are still valid no matter what it looks like now. Take out a day or two. Treat yourself to your favourite things. Think back to the things that brought you joy before now.

You’re older now, your children have left home in search of their own. Your wife may have left, your husband too. you feel empty and incomplete. HALT! .You are not alone. you’re not your current situation. You’re not too old to play. Never too old to make friends, never too old to join new clubs and societies. You’re definitely not too old to seek companionship but in all these, prioritize your mental health.

An empty jar cannot fill an empty glass so fill yourself with love and care so that when you share with others you have enough to carry you through the tough days. We all have one. Show up for yourself so when others need someone to show up for them you will be able to. Do me a favour and imagine everyone you know or care about showing up for themselves, what a wonderful world it would be right?

If you need help seek help, ask for help and knock on the right doors to get the help you need. Know your triggers and avoid them.


Love, Chidimma Akubue ❤️

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To the One Who Seamlessly Laid my Nails on my Nail Bed.

I suffered a nasty nail injury when my artificial nail broke off while I still had it glued to my natural nail. My nail bed was bloodied, swollen and very sore. I couldn’t do much with the hand entirely and I was somewhat devastated.

image source: chatelaine, google.

This whole incident led me to ask myself certain questions. Why did I even want to fix nails when my nails were perfectly fine as they were? I was so angry and when I showed someone my injury they said “beauty is pain” this infuriated me even more. What kind of beauty was I trying to achieve that led to this much pain?

It’s been months and honestly my nails haven’t recovered. Why am I rambling about nails and my fingers? Don’t worry it leads to something profound I discovered.

You see everything has its advantage and its disadvantage. You never really know what you’ll get when you go against the natural order of things or the will of God the creator. My shabby nails are an example of that but this is an appreciation post so let me get right to it.

In appreciation of and:

To the one who laid my nails seamlessly on my nail bed

To the one who gave each strand of my hair its curl pattern

To the one who despite my misgivings and mismanagement has been my manager

To the one who I can can call and know is just that one call away

To my strength in adversity

To my help in weakness

To my ALL

To the Unknown God.

( I realize I haven’t been consistent and I’ve gotten messages encouraging me to write more. This is my assurance to you. I’m coming back better than ever before. Thank you for your patience with me. )

Love, Chidimma Akubue ❤️

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Why do we struggle to love?

pexels-photo-264109.jpegWhere do I even begin? This past month has shown me truly that the heart of man is desperately wicked! I have three short stories to tell you.

Three things I experienced this month, three things that will break your heart if you have one.

Let’s start with the first one. I attended lector’s meeting as per usual the other day and I decided to walk home as opposed to taking a bike for #50. I was close to a newly opened pharmacy when I noticed two adult men clearly in their forties walking towards me and I towards them. We were coming from opposite directions. A rule of thumb when you find yourself in such a situation is for both parties to move left to create a path. Can you guess what one of these grown men said to me (the visibly bigger one that one would expect to have a level of intellect equal to his height and stature)?

He said “Madam shift” and gestured with his hand that I move to the oncoming traffic so he and his friend could pass. I paused looked at him and realised I even recognized his friend. I looked back to make sure I wasn’t in danger then I crossed to the other side. I wanted to there and then break down his callous behaviour and lecture him on common courtesy. This man is clearly twice my age, probably married with kids, possibly a daughter; but come on! besides his friend as I now know is a member of my church and is also a shop owner of some sort in the biggest supermarket in the estate. I went there today and I was tempted to go and tell him that I have judged him based on his friend’s action and I am not sorry *bites tongue*

I was still wondering how to come up with a piece on how that single incident is a reflection of the situation of women in Nigeria when the scam instagram page I tried to purchase a phone from blocked my number and refused to take my calls. That’s a story for another day.

Then one Sunday I decided to go to another parish for mass. I sat down next to a bunch of people and it was very baffling that after church we walked out together and under the scorching hot sun no one even offered to drop me even at the junction as they were clearly going my way. Come to think of it, maybe it’s because I wore sunglasses so they felt “this one doesn’t need the shade, she’s a big girl” or what do you think?

March was a beautiful month but these things little as they may be got to me.

How was the month of March for you? Hope you were able to MARCH into your blessings as you prophesied.

Happy Easter Guys! Remember the reason for the season.

Love, Chidimma Akubue.

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The Black Panthers: Who, Why and What Now?

First of all, the photos I took as tributbto the Black Panthers are bomb. I’ll be kind enough to drop this one here. See the rest for yourself on instagram when you follow @chimdimma.

The black Panther Party AKA The Black Panther Party for Self Defence was founded on October 15, 1966. The party’s purpose was to patrol African American neighborhoods to protect residents from acts of police brutality.

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Black Power; Black Panther Party. Black youth giving the black power salute outside a “liberation school” run by the Black Panther Party in San Francisco in 1969. Bettmanm/Corbis.

The panthers allegedly eventually developed into a marxist revolutionary group that called for arming of all African Americans, the exemption of all African Americans from sanctions of White America. They called for the release of and compensation of all African Americans for centuries of exploitation by White America. By the 1960’s, at its peak, the Black Panthers numbered over 2000 members.

Prints and photographs division / Library of Congress, Washington D.C ( Digital file no. LC-62-128087)
Black panther party displaying a banner on the steps of the Lincoln Memorial in Washington DC during the revolutionary people’s constitutional convention in 1970.

African Americans living in cities throughout North America continued to suffer social and economic inequality despite passage of the civil rights legislation of the 1960’s. The black communities were characterised by poverty and lack, subjecting many to harsh living conditions, chronic health problems, unemployment, violence and no resources to alleviate their suffering.

Creative direction, styling and editing by yours truly
Chidimma Akubue – Huey Newton’s beloved.


The party was founded by college students; Huey P. Newton and Bobby Seale in the wake of the assasination of Malcolm X in 1965.

Huey P. Newton
Bobby Seale

The organisation set itself apart from other black rights movements by establishing first, that there were racist whites and non-racist whites. They allied with the non-racist whites who had shown support to their cause.


From the onset, the party leaders had compiled a 10 point program under the title “what we believe” this would later serve as guidelines for the activities of the party.

We believe that Black and oppressed people will not be free until we are able to determine our destinies in our own communities ourselves, by fully controlling all the institutions which exist in our communities.

We believe that the federal government is responsible and obligated to give every person employment or a guaranteed income. We believe that if the American businessmen will not give full employment, then the technology and means of production should be taken from the businessmen and placed in the community so that the people of the community can organize and employ all of its people and give a high standard of living.

We believe that this racist government has robbed us and now we are demanding the overdue debt of forty acres and two mules. Forty acres and two mules were promised 100 years ago as restitution for slave labor and mass murder of Black people. We will accept the payment in currency which will be distributed to our many communities. The American racist has taken part in the slaughter of our fifty million Black people. Therefore, we feel this is a modest demand that we make.

We believe that if the landlords will not give decent housing to our Black and oppressed communities, then housing and the land should be made into cooperatives so that the people in our communities, with government aid, can build and make decent housing for the people.

We believe in an educational system that will give to our people a knowledge of the self. If you do not have knowledge of yourself and your position in the society and in the world, then you will have little chance to know anything else.

We believe that the government must provide, free of charge, for the people, health facilities which will not only treat our illnesses, most of which have come about as a result of our oppression, but which will also develop preventive medical programs to guarantee our future survival. We believe that mass health education and research programs must be developed to give all Black and oppressed people access to advanced scientific and medical information, so we may provide our selves with proper medical attention and care.

We believe that the racist and fascist government of the United States uses its domestic enforcement agencies to carry out its program of oppression against black people, other people of color and poor people inside the united States. We believe it is our right, therefore, to defend ourselves against such armed forces and that all Black and oppressed people should be armed for self defense of our homes and communities against these fascist police forces.

We believe that the various conflicts which exist around the world stem directly from the aggressive desire of the United States ruling circle and government to force its domination upon the oppressed people of the world. We believe that if the United States government or its lackeys do not cease these aggressive wars it is the right of the people to defend themselves by any means necessary against their aggressors.

We believe that the many Black and poor oppressed people now held in United States prisons and jails have not received fair and impartial trials under a racist and fascist judicial system and should be free from incarceration. We believe in the ultimate elimination of all wretched, inhuman penal institutions, because the masses of men and women imprisoned inside the United States or by the United States military are the victims of oppressive conditions which are the real cause of their imprisonment. We believe that when persons are brought to trial they must be guaranteed, by the United States, juries of their peers, attorneys of their choice and freedom from imprisonment while awaiting trial.

When, in the course of human events, it becomes necessary for one people to dissolve the political bonds which have connected them with another, and to assume, among the powers of the earth, the separate and equal station to which the laws of nature and nature’s God entitle them, a decent respect to the opinions of mankind requires that they should declare the causes which impel them to the separation.
We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal; that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable rights; that among these are life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness. That to secure these rights, governments are instituted among men, deriving their just powers from the consent of the governed; that, whenever any form of government becomes destructive of these ends, it is the right of the people to alter or to abolish it, and to institute a new government, laying its foundation on such principles, and organizing its powers in such form as to them shall seem most likely to effect their safety and happiness. Prudence, indeed, will dictate that governments long established should not be changed for light and transient causes; and, accordingly, all experience hath shown that mankind are most disposed to suffer, while evils are sufferable, than to right themselves by abolishing the forms to which they are accustomed. But, when a long train of abuses and usurpation, pursuing invariably the same object, evinces a design to reduce them under absolute despotism, it is their right, it is their duty, to throw off such government, and to provide new guards for their future security.


Unfortunately for the black community the party was dissolved as a result of Internal problems created by the CIA and other intelligence groups and a shoot out that ensued between party members and police officers initiated by the police officers. Many party members and police officers lost their lives and a large number of them were incacerated and some are still serving time decades after the party’s dissolution.

Angela Davis

Some members who are still in prison I have tagged below:

















A few others incarcerated at that time whose crimes were race related(the cause the black panthers fought for) have been released, including Otis Johnson a student leader accused of shooting and killing a police officer.

Watch his video here ⬇

Watch Otis Johnson speak about his time in prison after 44 years

P.S The recently premiered movie may not be inspired by TBPPSD. Controvercies about their name and date of origin can be clarified by a little research.

How was your weekend?

I had a long one and I didn’t go to watch Marvel’s Black Panther as I planned because duties. Maybe i’ll go this week and drop a post about it. What will I then title it since this one is already with the same title? So many questions too little time…anyway enjoy your week and try not to be judgemental.


Chidimma Akubue ❤

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Get to Know Me.

Hey guys, welcome back to my blog. If you’re new here feel free, look around and leave me comments.

Straight to the business of the day; I wrote my first get to know me tag here and I felt it needed to be updated so here’s an updated version.

What’s a typical day in your life lately?

My day starts quite early. I’m up as early as 5am sometimes mostly because I attend morning masses ( my grandmother taught me this and I wrote about her death here and here and need to get breakfast ready. After mass, I go home and finish prepping for work with my dad whom I’m currently working with and for while I wait for my other plans to unfold.

What’s your fitness routine?

Haha! fitness routine? What’s that? To be honest, at the moment there’s no routine especially since I’ve been trying to gain weight in all the right places. I eat more than I need to but there’s one problem with this…I’m gaining weight in my stomach area too and I dont like it. Anyway, when I hit my target weight I’d get back to working out (I used to do about 100-300 squats a week a few lunges and planks and I eat fruits and oats for dinner)

What’s on your playlist?

Nigerian songs on repeat man! I’m actually enjoying the ones I have been listening to. I’m also listening to guided meditations. I use an app called headspace and I listen just before bed.

What’s in your bag on any given day?

On any given day depending on the size of the bag, I have my phone, lipgloss or balm, my tiny journal gifted to me by Sam onayemi, a pen, my wallet and lotion for when ashy creeps up on me because I kind of hate excessive moisture ( my oily face discourages me from moisturizing my body)

Favourite movies /series?

My favourite movie ever is Guzaarish and it is an Indian movie. If you’ve watched it you know what I’m talking about. Closely followed by Roots. I had to watch for a literature class in Uni and I fell in love with African American literature. I thoroughly enjoyed The wedding party but please dont judge me I’ve still not seen TWP2 because no time to. Then The art of getting by is another one I love so much because I can totally relate. I also like Matilda lol. I remember making paper Matilda dolls with my sister as a little girl. How can I forget The great Gatsby?

For TV series I love HTGAWM, blackish, blackbox , criminal minds and that’s all I remember or maybe all I know.

Please can you help a sister out? What new Tv series are bomb right now?

If you also have anymore questions for me you can send them via dm to my instagram account @chimdimma__ or my email

Love, chidimma Akubue ❤